the reunion

Jakarta, December 2006.

I don't know how many years it has been since we all gathered and have long deep conversations.
But here I am, finding myself surrounded by my soulmates - my girlfriends.

They are my life-line. My survival kit.
One of the many things I thank God for.

I still can't believe it.. after years and years of geographical separations, that very afternoon we meet up, celebrating life in all its ups and downs.
Celebrating one's happiness - a girlfriend who's getting married that very Sunday.

Things changed, definitely.
Style, beauty.
Careers, marriage, passion, goals.
Answered prayers, hopeful dreams.
Visions :)

But some things remain the same...
Laughter.
Hugs and cipika-cipiki.
Support.
Smile.
Comfort.
Jokes.
Happiness.
Love.

They are one of life's greatest treasure.

We're growing up :)

the reunion

Guy Sebastian - Taller Stronger Better

I've met the darkness
And held by the night
Lonely was there in my arms

I've been with broken
I've stand in her eyes
Emptiness left me this scar

But I heard Your voice
Calling me out of the cold

Chorus
Now I can live again
I have been chosen to run with the wind
I can go higher
I know I will soar
I'm taller I'm stronger
I'm better than before

I've walked some fire
So I could become
All that You said I could be

And now my breath has a reason
My sky has a sun
Cause In you I found love that I need

Your touch revived me
Cause your love that opened my eyes
(Back to chorus)

Bridge
Cause I broke through the rain
Stood through the storm
Now I know I'll remain
I can do the impossible
I can reach the unreachable
It's my time I will rise
And live!

Guy Sebastian - Taller Stronger Better

Open your eyes and see

Be content.
Because you are more fortunate than other people in this world.

But never be satisfied.
Because you can always be a better person.

"In every season... I know You love me"
Hillsong - At The Cross

Open your eyes and see

The Grey Area

What's worst than being black or white? It's being grey.

Being grey means that you're being neither black nor white. You stay there, stagnant. Your whole life is basically just a series of routines that you're fine with, but you're longing for something more.

As I typed this, just now my partner in crime rang me. Told her about the miracles she just experienced and how good God is. I was amazed, speechless.. you name it. It's always amazes me how God just work miraculously through people's lives. My church has been conducting a 'ROCKStimony' series about miracles that church people experienced in their lives recently.

For me, I have been waiting for that to come.
And still am.

To be honest, my life's pretty much like the grey area I mentioned before. I'm fine with it, but I want something more. Something real. Something BIG.

Don't get me wrong, I'm genuinely happy for the miracles my friends had. But I couldn't stop wondering... where's mine? I admit, I haven't been living the greatest life as a Christian, especially in these moments. Lots of problems, troubles coming my way. And sometimes I couldn't help it but ask... "where are You?????"

I know I shouldn't complain.
I know there's always more to life.
But why do I feel this way?

Mungkin masalahnya bukan di dunia, tapi di saya sendiri...

The biggest enemy is not everybody else, but it's yourself.
dammit.

The Grey Area

Rush Hour

Deadline!

30 days.

Rush

Rush

Rush

Rush

Rush

Deadlineeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...!!!!!!!!!!!

D...E...A...D.

Rush Hour

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have medium extroversion. You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party. Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences. But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time." Conscientiousness: You have medium conscientiousness. You're generally good at balancing work and play. When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done. But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it. Agreeableness: You have high agreeableness. You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly. Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone. You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance. Neuroticism: You have medium neuroticism. You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic. Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy. Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is high. In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas. You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits. A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

Just a thought.

This couple of weeks have been one of the most hardest weeks of my entire life. Coping up with work, earning not-so-much money, and spending it all on BILLS! (i hate bills!!!! >_<) Trying so hard to be strong for those I loved the most. Sulking it deep down inside. Telen pil pahit. Had a talk with my partner in crime here in Perth. About how we should live our lives. About where we really belong. About what we should do in the future. About how we define happiness.

I just realized that happiness is defined differently for each person. I guess it's depend on what type of person you are. Are you ambitious? Are you sentimental? Are you brave?

My partner in crime, she defined her happiness is when she can build a huge business and make a lot of money out of it. As long as her bank account looks good -- that's what she said. That's the kind of person she is: business-minded. She's not afraid of challenges in business (she's excited about it :P) and very very ambitious. A true choleric, I guess.

Then she asked me.. what is MY definition of happiness?

I've been pondering about this, and I realized... My definition of happiness is to love and being loved in return (this is not ngopi from Moulin Rouge lho yahhh.. i'm serious!) Being with those I love lifted up my spirit, as if I can touch the sky. I'm not afraid of anything when my loved ones are around, and I can't imagine my life without them.

Don't ask me to build business or maen2 saham and stuff, cuz I don't think I'm interested in those kind of things (at least for now) I don't think I'm build as a career woman (except for those kewl chic fashion editor. hahahaha) or as my dear marbles boss puts it "ibu rumah tangga buanget".

But hey, there's nothing wrong with that kan?

Just a thought.

Young hearts, run free!

It's amazing how fast time goes by. It's still feels like yesterday was New Year, and you have all these New Year Resolutions, and now you find yourself already working, making money (and spending it), growing old and making dreams come true.

The same goes to my best galpals.

One is getting married at the end of the year.
One is taking a step of faith and is very brave about it.
One has found where she belongs, and being a huge blessing (no doubt about it).
One surrendered all to God.

We're still young. Even though we might think to ourselves "dang, i'm twenty two now!" (at least that's how I think. haha) but the truth is we are young hearts. we run free.

So let's run! as fast as the light, as strong as the wind. With God, of course :)

Young hearts, run free!

Très Chic!

chic

adj. chic·er, chic·est
1. Conforming to the current fashion; stylish: chic clothes; a chic boutique.
2. Adopting or setting current fashions and styles; sophisticated: chic, well-dressed young executives.

I always loved the word 'Chic'. It resembles a style that's unique, original and one-of-a-kind. That is exactly how I want my blog to be: a trendsetter.

After careful considerations (kayak apaan aja yah) and thoughts, I decided to change my blog. The whole lot of it! The design, the colors, the layout and most importantly, the concept as my personality has developed over the years.

When I pondered on the word 'Chic' the image of Sarah Jessica Parker came to mind. She is, without a doubt, the chicest lady I've ever laid my eyes on (and yes, I'm biased. I love the girl!). Yeah, that's why I put her as my icon here.

Being chic is not always just on the surface (although it is an essential!), it's more to the personality. Being that one special person and knowing that there won't be anyone exactly like you, because God has knitted us and made us wonderfully complex.

So, sit back and relax. Let your inner-self shine, and have fun :)

Très Chic!